"Don't Leave Me" 4-14-08

"Don't Leave Me" 4-14-08

Look back on all the times we had.

and all the times i made you glad.

and skip the ones where i made you sad..

I love you, and that will always be true.

And i'm sorry for the things I say.

I wouldn't have you any other way.

all I want to say right now is

Please don't leave me. Please don't leave me.

do you even see me? I don't care, just please don't leave me.

Listen to me now!

I command you not to die!

"Please!" I say, "don't make me cry.."

All of this just isn't right..

None of this is even fair...

All this crap just makes my heart tear.

Do what ever you want, just please don't leave me.

I can't stand this! Can't you see?

Please I plead. Just don't leave me.

You just can't die.

I won't allow it.

Don't die, just please don't quit.

I need you. Don't leave me.

Can't you see?

I need you, dont leave me.

Masquerade 4-8-08 and 4-9-08

Masquerade 4-8-08 and 4-9-08

Everyday I'm in a masquerade.
Pretending to be who i'm really not.
Marching in the same parade.
Someones help is what i sought.

I try and be strong. I hold my head high.
But on the inside i just want to die.
Someone save me or here I'll lie.
All i have to ask is why.

Why me? Why us?
All I want to do is raise a fuss,
And to cry all night.
All i want is everything to be alright.

But everyday I'm in a masquerade.
Pretending and pretending that i'm ok.
Acting like everyone else's maid.
Always coming to their aid.

How was I picked to live in this hell?
I wear a mask, but things are never well.
I call out for help but no one hears.
Almost as if they have no ears.

They don't understand what i'm going through
They don't understand the things that I do.
They don't get how these things effect me.
and when I cry they don't see.

No one ever comes to my aid.
'Cause everyday i'm in a masquerade.
As I march in the same damn parade.

My Finally 4-7-08 and 4-8-08

My Finally 4-7-08 and 4-8-08

I'm on a ship
The waters deadly
As I scream, i begin to slip.
I just can't seem to hold myself steady.

Come on lightning! come and strike me!
Strike me down! Make me fall!
Let me sink down under the dea.
"Strike me!" i scream. "Hit me!" i call.

Let the oceans I've cried engulf me.
I want to be completely happy finally.
But when's my finally? I can't see.
All i see is this great sea.

Come on lightning! Knock me off this mast!
Into the seas that are now avast.
So that I may look into my past,
and maybe I will find my finally at last.

Free 3-23-08

Free 3-23-08

I once was a bird. bound and beaten.
I watched the other, all my food eaten.
But now i'm free! I broke through their rope!
Flying twords the sun with a final glimmer of hope!
I am free! no longer bound!
and yet i'm sad, for i'm not found.
but i have friends, thats all i need.
and i'll sit with them as i eat my seed.


(this was a very rushed poem.)